Lovesick melody

Just thought I'd let all you Bloggers know...

I am crushing HARD on a fabulous girl. I think there is definite potential with her for there to be something more... but we shall have to wait & see...

and yes, before you ask/wonder/etc, i'm a lesbian.

Life, the universe, & everything.

Yesterday I had my first home cooked meal in six months, courtesy of my mother. She cooked me moroccan chicken with couscous, which is one of my absolute all-time fave meals. For her she didn't see it as that much of a big deal - the fact that I went over to her house, we talked for a couple hours, got some groceries & she cooked me dinner. But for me, it was a big thing. The reason for this being is that I really felt like it was the first step for things to get 'back on track' with me & her.

For the longest time, she & I haven't had the greatest relationship. We fought a lot, and both of us were to blame. For better or for worse, I am a very stubborn person - indecisive, yes, but once my mind's made up, it's set in stone. She would often disagree with certain life choices & decisions that I made & thanks to my stubborness, I could never be dissuaded otherwise. Last night I really felt like we covered some ground & are now on the same page, which is a feeling I haven't felt with her in years.

Here's hoping that things can only move up from here...

16 and Pregnant

I have to blog about this even though I am well aware that others reading it will probably have different opinions to mine. I am not trying to change anyone else's perspective on things - merely to get my perspective across. Let me start with saying that teen mothers almost always look scummy. It's just not a good look. And no teenager under the age of 18 can honestly say that it was a planned pregnancy, regardless of whether they regret having a child or not. Even if they actually wanted to get pregnant, it always seems to be accidental or unexpected. Correct me if I'm wrong.

It's not hard to close your legs & make a conscious decision to NOT have unprotected sex, just as it is not that hard to get 'carried away' or 'lost in the moment' and sleep with someone without a second thought... bottom line is that if you're emotionally mature enough to sleep with someone & are aware of all the consequences, & know how you would deal with those consequences should a certain situation arise.... YOU ARE MATURE ENOUGH TO PROTECT YOURSELF and use condoms and/or take the pill if you do not want to fall pregnant or contract a disease!

It's not that fucking hard people! I am not a virgin, and I didn't find it a challenge to take the pill, use condoms, or - at times - use both. I guess my frustration stems from a conversation I had with my ex boyfriend about abortion and our personal opinion on the matter. I am not, in any way, a religious person & my ex boyfriend is a Christian. However, we share the same belief that abortion should be reserved for certain circumstances only - rape victims, serious genetic defects, and.... no, basically just those two things.

Abortion is not a contraceptive & should not be used as an easy way out for stupid teenage girls who fucked up. If you don't want the child that is no reason to kill it, for God's sake. Go through with the pregnancy (consequences for your actions) and put it up for adoption. Just because you don't want a child doesn't mean that someone else doesn't.

It's just selfish...

hmph..

I'm in desperate need of some retail therapy.

someone take me shopping?

Chances.

I would probably benefit from taking some advice from the image to the left.

"It takes courage to grow up and become who you really are."

Too long have I been happy to just sit & let life pass me by. Not any more. You've got to take chances, be risky, to reap the rewards & get the most out of life. This is what I've learned over the past month, be it for better or for worse.